•My Journey to Self Discovery and Healing•
My name is Meagan Beaudin and I am Sirian Starseed.
My purpose is to heal others through my gifts of intuitive sight and artistic creation.
Through my own personal path, I have uncovered my abilities to 'see' peoples true selves that are hidden by the masks they wear...masks of pain and fear, self doubt, lack of self love. My purpose is to help you see the light that still resides within you, no matter how far it has been buried. We all have our true authentic selves waiting to come out again and be expressed, and know that you are worthy of becoming that person.
I offer Cosmic Self Portraits that I paint along with a descriptive reading of what I see in your soul. Each portrait is highly unique and is meant to be as a reminder of who you truly are so that you can focus on bringing them back to life.
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A year ago I was in the worst shape of my life. I lost so much weight and couldn't keep it on no matter how much I ate. My body was in a constant state of ketosis which caused all of my muscles to atrophy. I had been diagnosed with diabetes type 1 after being so hesitant to go to the hospital to figure out what was going on.
I had been smoking cigarettes for almost 5 years after leaving a toxic relationship filled with emotional and sexual abuse. I was at a point that I didn't care if I was going to die or live, I couldn't see my purpose, I couldn't see a reason to keep going. Yet I still decided to hold on, knowing deep down there was a reason for all of this.
I had gone through so much, being diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis at age 5 and growing up with chronic pain that I kept hidden my entire life except to those that I truly trusted. Even the simplest tasks would be excruciating, opening a door, putting on my clothes or going on a walk. Yet I was so used to the pain that I just kept it hidden so no one even knew. I wanted to be able to function like everyone else so I pushed through the pain and didn't let anyone see. I didn't want to be portrayed as different like that or be seen as vulnerable. It felt like having shards of glass in between each and every one of my joints, especially my limbs.. I felt trapped in an 80-year-old body that was withering away before I even had the chance to live.
Last year my sight began to fade so I got glasses. It turned out that I had developed cataracts caused by medication I took for the rheumatoid arthritis during my childhood.
I've been put on so many medications throughout my life, starting with pills including methotrexate which is something that they pair with medication for cancer patients. And at the time I was only 13 years old and I took it for about 8 years in total. I then was switched over to injections and then eventually infusions. It was 10 years of needles, 10 years of pills. I got so sick of it, sick of being a human pin cushion, sick of all the nausea and sick of not being able to do things that I wanted to do because of the medication. I felt like I was being poisoned so I made the choice to get off all medications and to try to cleanse my body and go to natural roots in order to heal.
I had grown up in a very toxic environment where I was mistreated emotionally and starved of the love that I needed. I was so used to being manipulated, controlled, and taken for granted that I had shut down completely and didn't even see the point in of expressing myself.
That's when I developed the rheumatoid arthritis. My emotional pain literally turned into physical pain and unfortunately, being in pain was the only time that I received any kind of attention. I was led to believe that was the only way to receive love from anybody.
Fast forward to now, I have made the journey to finding myself again. I've done my shadow work, I've worked through all of the programming due to pain, abuse, manipulation, control, abandonment, fears and most of all learning to love myself for me. Releasing anger and learning to forgive all of those who have hurt me and learning to forgive myself for letting them.
In doing so I've been able to heal myself completely. I no longer have rheumatoid arthritis or Diabetes Type 1 and I received surgery to get my cataracts removed. I stick to an alkaline vegan diet to nurture my body and I have found that it also helps my mind and soul and helps me stay connected to my highest self. I have learned to grow from all of my experiences, no matter how horrible they were. I have emerged from this cocoon and finally flourished into the butterfly that I am today.
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